Hiiiiiiiii everyone.
Okay. So I need to apologize for being a debbie downer the last few weeks. I have just been having a little pity party for myself and that's not okay. I do, however, appreciate all of your love and support on my behalf. Yes these migraines are a pain in the you know what, but apparently there is not much that can be done about them. This week was not any easier, if not worse, but I am sick of being depressed and not acting like myself but I can't seem to snap out of it. I'm trying really hard to be happy and to get through this but it's harrrrrd.
Which I guess leads me to the title of this. The convenient Messiah. Interesting right? Yesterday in sacrament meeting, one of the bishopric members bore his testimony about a book that Elder Holland wrote and one of the chapters was called the Convenient Messiah. He said that NOTHING in this religion is very convenient. And if you think about it, it's totally true! Callings are never convenient. Missionary work isn't convenient. Obeying the commandments isn't convenient. But it's always worth it. Always. Even with these migraines, I have been able to see blessings from it. I have come a lot closer to Jesus Christ, and felt a small portion of what He felt when He was suffering. I have spent many hours on my knees trying to understand why I am having this trial and why I can't just do the work that I came here to do. I still don't know why, but I do know that Heavenly Father knows what I am going through, as well as my Savior. I know that everything will be okay, no matter the outcome. And I know that this is happening for some reason. I'm trying to stay positive, I really am.
That's basically it for this week. We didn't get much done because of the migraines, but hopefully this week will be better. You are all the best. Love and miss you all.
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