Another week is gone! Time is going way way way too fast.
So listen. This week was another toughy. Our dumb district leader made us feel like poop and was actually pretty rude so that didn't help... But Sister Allen (Her name is Breanna and she said people always called her Breezy Bre so I started calling her Breezy this week hahaha) and I are truckin' along. She's great. Transfers are … next week? And I hope we stay together :) We'll see though!
This week I had an epiphany of one of the reasons I came on a mission. We helped a less active sister clean her house. Maybe that wasn't the best of my ideas so far.... It turned into a huge project that included the whole Ward. Her house is teeny tiny but had more stuff in it than you could even imagine! I don't think her house had EVER been cleaned. Ever. It was fillllllled with dust and grease and nasty nasty stuff everywhere. We spent one day dejunking everything and then the next day we cleaned and we didn't even get half way done. I literally spent an hour cleaning just the microwave. Super nasty and we were exhausted afterwards but at the end of it we had fun. But I realized I have to do these things so I know what I don't want my life to be like after the mission haha. Yikes man.
I did everything I could to not pull my hair out this week cause I was so frustrated. Appointments cancelling, things not working out, not finding anyone who is interested. This is tough work! And it kinda starts to eat at ya after awhile. It's hard to keep up the faith. It's hard to be motivated. It's hard to trust that this is happening for a reason. We come on missions to teach people the gospel and to see lives change, and when that doesn't happen you start wondering why you are even here, what's the point? But then you realize that this is changing your life. That I am a totally different person than I was 14 months ago. That I have learned more about my Savior and about His Atonement than I ever would have if I didn't come on this beautiful journey. That I have learned how to love people and forgive people and deal with people. I have learned how to be more responsible and how to rely, listen to and recognize the Spirit. I have strengthened my testimony of the Book of Mormon and learned the life skills that I otherwise wouldn't have. I have made multiple lifelong friends and relationships that I would have never found if I stayed home. I have laughed harder than I ever have before and have had the absolute time of my life! When I realize all of that I realize why I am out here. That, oh yeah, the Lord does have a plan for me and, oh yeah, it's different than mine! I realize that I am out here for me. Not sounding selfish but I needed to change myself. In the process I get to help others and teach them the truth, but as a result I am a much stronger person, and that's why it's so worth it :)
I read a talk that has become my favorite. It's "His Grace is Sufficient" by Brad Wilcox. I HIGHLY recommend reading it. I think it has truly changed my life and my perspective about things. Take a look at it :)
I love you all and hope you have a good week. You are all in my prayers!
Sister Anderson :)
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