Either You Can or You Can't

Famdamily:

 

This week... Geez where to I even begin. This week has been a rolllllercoasterrrrr.

 

Well let's start with some good stuff. Last Pday… I was talking about how I wanted to wax my lip… Ya know, just for fun. So Sister Graves bought a waxing kit! So thinking we knew what we were doing, we rubbed the little waxing strips together and stuck 'em on. Well.. it worked! But either me or Sister Graves pulled mine off too hard and ripped my skin off hahaha. And it made the rest of my lip all dry. It was super weird so I have been loadin' moisturizer on my face to clear it up. But it made for a good laugh :) We looked like the Lorax with the strips on our face :)

 

Also one night we were at the Graves again, and I asked Brother Graves to break dance. That was probably one of the best choices I have made :) It was sooo good haha I was laughing pretty hard :)

 

LAST the Cuadra's came to church! Even Matthew's dad! And he even bore his testimony :) Hopefully that means that the ball is rolling to be able to get Matthew baptized :)

 

Okay seriously though. This week was a toughy. It all kinda started when Brother Minton said that there is 0% chance of him quitting drinking. That was a major bummer. We set a goal to baptize 2 this month, which means I am expecting some big time miracles to happen. We were at the Graves for lunch after Brother Minton had said that, and I totally broke. I just started crying and unloading my feelings like a 19 year old girl does. Gosh I was like a blubbering idiot. I just let everything out, how I have struggled my whole mission, and everyone always says that it will get better and expect miracles and things like that, and then those miracles don't happen. And when they don't happen or things go wrong I start blaming myself. I start thinking what is wrong with me and why things aren't working like I want them to. I know it is not my fault but sometimes I can't help but think it is. Anyways, that night we had chinese take out for dinner. And this is SUPER cheesey but my fortune said "either you can or you can't." It kinda hit me. I realized that I can do anything, it's just up to my attitude. Like dad used to tell me all the time, (I'm totally throwing myself under the bus with this one) "Your attitude totally sucks right now." I realized that my attitude has indeed totally sucked. I have been this debbie downer and not been myself lately. A lot of it I think has been with Sister Cho and how we don't exactly get along, and our cultures are totally different.. But I can def change my attitude about that and find the good in her and in our companionship. Anyway, that night, I prayed. I prayed hard. I felt like Enos, wrestling with the Lord. I prayed for almost an hour apologizing, begging for help, and giving thanks for the things that I do have in my life. When I was done I felt SO good. I felt like my Savior was right there with me. It was a huge blessing to me. Sure things are still hard and we are still struggling to find people to teach, but I know that the Lord is here with me. That I am not alone! That's such a blessing that we all have! We will never be alone. Never.

 

Well, enough of my preaching. I know things will get better. I am grateful for these hard times to help me grow stronger and closer to my Heavenly Father. I have learned a lot about myself and just about life, and it's all thanks to the mish. Oh yeah. I'm half way done this week. Totes cray. Like seriously where did the time go?!

 

Well I miss you all to say the least. I may or may not have gotten a little homesick this week. I cried it all out and I'm fine.. I just miss you :) Be happy and have a great week! LOVE YOU!

 

Sister Anderson

 

p.s. it rained really hard this week......